That’s a week without any update. The reason is that, I found out with fear and worries that blogging seemed to become a burden instead of an enjoyable hobby for me. When I focused on finishing the series on textbooks, I slowly fell into a trap that I dug for myself—I narrowed my mind to simply doing work and couldn’t escape from the whirlpool of endless tasks.

So, I gave myself a break. It felt so good that I could have time to do things other than blogging. But I don’t want to give up on blogging. I want to continue. I want to become active in writing and expressing ideas.

I like writing my diary, because I see it as a record of my “personal history” which lets me see myself in the past and gain insights and power from the past experiences. For me, this blog is similar, although compared to my diary, my blog has less personal things but more formal and organized content. Also, more or less, my blog has things targeting at my readers. Yet after all, my diary and blog are quite similar. Both of them let me enjoy the time being alone, and let me enjoy the “inner” thoughts and activities, those arising from my own mind.

I wish I can always enjoy blogging, so I’ve decided to be more casual with it. The things that I’ve been saving and wanting to write about this whole time, no matter aiming at myself or my readers, I will still probably write about. However, I want to keep myself as a part of my audience.